We are settled in well to Olympia and still loving it. We even love the rainy, overcast weather. My family is healthy and happy. Can't ask for much more than that right?
Since this is my fitness blog, I'll go ahead and get to the point. I'm still on a break from running..not sure if I'll ever get back to where I was before. Not sure if I truly want to. I miss it for sure but I don't think I ever want to run distance (half marathon or more) again. I don't think my knees will let me! I think I need to just get out there and go..slow and low til I gauge how my body will react.
I finally decided to get over my fears and join crossfit. It has been a humbling and frustrating several months. I thought I was in decent shape til I started working out at the box. I have SO much to learn and walking into a new sport at age 42 has been hard. I feel like I don't belong there sometimes since I'm not younger and stronger. I keep on chugging away though. I've learned to do some things I never could before and that's been fun.
I've also cried and been angry with myself SO many times...I still struggle with a lot of the movements and have quickly learned that those things will take a LOT of time, practice and patience. I can truly say with all my heart that I HATE snatches and overhead squats. HATE THEM! I thought I wanted to compete but truthfully, I just want to ENJOY working out. I want to get stronger and be a better athlete. I hope that can come from the time spent at crossfit. I have SO much work to do still. I signed up for a competition at the end of this month but I'm totally waffling on the idea. I don't feel ready at all. I don't want to disappoint my coaches, my partner or myself with a poor performance. :( Days like today where I can hardly get a weight that should be nothing over my head really make me doubt myself.
I keep reminding myself, especially on frustrating days like today, that my journey to now has been a long one..it hasn't been easy and I EARNED the right to be where I'm at right now. I'm allowed to keep pushing and to keep trying to attain my goals. It doesn't matter than I'm not 25 or that I'm not an elite athlete...I deserve to be where I'm at trying to make the changes I want to make!
We threw down over Christmas break. I ate a lot of sugar, drank a lot of adult beverages, ate cheese like it was my job and took a few weeks off to be with my family since my Mom came to visit. Hubby and I decided that we were going to do an extended Whole 30 from Jan 1st to Feb 14th. My first few days went as they typically do...felt good, then tired, now a bit puny with sugar cravings. I am in the process of pushing the healthy fats to get my body doing what it needs to do. I have already lost a good bit of the "eating like an a-hole" bloat so that's cool. Here are a few obligatory Whole 30 food porn pics for you guys
So, that's where I'm at right now. Eating good stuff but still sort of stuck in a negative place with regards to fitness. One day at a time, one rep at a time right? :) Til next time....
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