Ok, not really BUT I have been on a strength gain cycle. Knee has kept me out of running so naturally it seemed a fine time to start with trying to gain some mass again. I've been taking Creatine, lifting as heavy as I can and trying to eat up all the good foods (and maybe a dozen or so naughty oatmeal cookies). I've seen some good progress in terms of getting stronger especially with leg strength.
I've been feeling pretty...ahem....chunky for lack of a better word lately. My jeans are snug (thank you yoga pants for existing) and I feel like I've got a lot of extra baggage in the middle. I'm trying to add on mass without adding too much extra blubber...SO HARD. Today I decided to step on the scale for the first time in a month. I saw a number 3.5 pounds higher than my last weigh in BUT my body fat % had dropped and my muscle mass had gone up. Now, I know that scales like this aren't super accurate and I have a hard time believing I've leaned out or gained much in terms of muscle. Though I have noticed that my quads are looking pretty beefed up especially in my workout pants so could it be that I'm doing it right FINALLY? I'm going to roll with these new numbers and keep doing my thing. Trying to decide if I should move up a size in my pants for now. I wore a new, size up pair of jeans yesterday. Felt great in the legs but kept slipping down when I moved around so maybe I need to just be ok with muffin top normal sized jeans? I hate pants. I think I want to live in skirts/dresses instead. That's another blog post I think.
I was actually super proud of myself for not freaking out over the new high number.Truth be told, I truly don't give a shit over what the scale says. I want to feel good in my clothing. If I end up weighing 140 lbs but am a compact, little powerhouse then so be it!
I know a few months ago I posted about saying goodbye to MFP. It's been awesome not tracking BUT I created a new account yesterday. I've decided that since I have VERY specific goals and that since I'm such a hard gainer, I'm going to use the tools out there to help me. I'm tracking for a short time to make sure I'm sniffing where I need to be sniffing with calories/macros. This won't be long term and I'm not adding friends etc. I don't need motivation or encouragement...I got that. I just need the numbers in front of me easily accessible.
Had a good talking to by SR who is the trainer of the bootcamp I'm hitting a few times a week. He got a no BS attitude and doesn't tend to sugar coat things. I appreciate that style. Was talking to him about my goals and about being frustrated over lack of progress. He said "The problem with you is, YOU ARE FIT! Your changes are small and your eyes are critical," That's very, very true. I am going to start recognizing the small changes and focusing on the now while keeping "the big"picture in mind
too.
Have a great day peeps..Next post is gonna be lots of food porn! :)
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